Thoughts – November 21st, 2015

Princess and I are looking forward to a future play date with K. and J. and some woman/woman interaction.

None of us are in a hurry, it is about taking baby steps, aligning expectations.

It would be sad if this first experience would end with a disappointment even though it can’t completely be ruled out.

Princess and I are eager to walk this road occasionally so a disillusion just might cast a shadow over our plans.

There is already enough pleasure to be found during the trip to the goal we have set ourselves. Princess and I talk and fantasize and that is a good thing because it emphasizes that we are both okay with our plans.

I would not be me if I did not think about this experience on other levels. For example, I like K. and we are as much alike as we are different. I trust K. completely and our conversations are open and honest.

Obviously I’ll have to work with him, a Dom, when we create a scene. This will be a challenge because I love to be 100% in control, sexually and scene wise. Yet I am sure our collaboration will be fruitful and enriching.

So then I thought, maybe one day, I could organize a scene with Princess and a submissive or switch. I would be the puppet master and not a participant.

I told Princess about the idea. She did not say much.

Past Friday evening, while talking on the phone, Princess told me she preferred playing with another couple. Just the three of us was not exactly a menacing idea but then again it was. She could not pinpoint exactly what she wanted to say. She used the word jealousy so I asked “are you afraid it would get out of hand? That I would end up having sex with the other woman?”
“No,” Princess replied, “well, yes. Pfff, I don’t know what I feel or think.”
We called it a day.

Yesterday, Saturday evening, while were driving to the Dungeon in Antwerp I brought the subject up again.

“I don’t want to share your attention,” Princess explained. “I want to be Your submissive, as in exclusively. The idea you would meet another submissive to discuss a scene, mind you, nothing more than a talk and coffee, I trust you, would upset me. Playing with another couple takes that away, as the other submissive has her own Sir. And I want only you as my Dom.”

I smiled. I could absolutely relate to what Princess just told me and I told her I would respect fully what she had just told me.

When you decide to share or explore your sexuality beyond the borders of being a couple I think it is important some stuff stays exclusive, a safe harbor, something to fall back on. A place to come home to.

To be continued

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