Music From The Cosmos #ASMSG #jan #bondage

There was a time, long ago, when I had acne and felt lost and abandoned. Add to that not being understood, feeling unattractive, raging hormones and only masturbation as an outlet valve.
I was a 17-year old adolescent in need. If I had known at that time my first fuck was scheduled 4 years in the future I would have shot myself.

Not everything was that bad though. There was booze, my mother liked it and didn’t mind me enjoying it too.
Even more important was the fact there were 3 cinemas in my hometown and in one of them I handled the twin projectors.
I saw a zillion movies and most of them for free.
I saw Histoire d’O and was awakened but that too would take a long time before it would be fulfilled.

I had a collection of original movie posters but I lost them on the road while I travelled from chick to chick.

Hoping to find the One. Hell, if I would have known the Love Of My Life was waiting for me 30 years in the future I would have shot myself.

Obviously one does better not know the whole picture.
Yes, it was the seventies yet not everything was that bad though. Take this radio program for instance, Music from the Cosmos.

If Britt Ekland and Agnetha Fältskog (remember guys, we are taking about the 70s) were making out in my bedroom, and asking me, with their bedroom eyes, to join them during the program I would have answered with a harsh ‘hush women, shut the fuck up.’
Well, let’s cut the crap. Even without that program I would have said the same, as I would have shit my pants in such a situation.

Music from the Cosmos was a highbrow radio program where an impersonal voice would read Nietzsche or some other less known philosopher. In between these readings one would hear music by Tangerine Dream, Klaus Schulze, Popol Vuh and other representatives of the electronic avant-garde.
Even today, 40 years later, I am aware that a little part of me was formed by this radio program. I still adore this music and it are waves of sound I like to surf.
I was an innocent kid back then but troubled with hopes, wishes, longings and dreams. That fucking pain too, that very tangible feeling of the loss of my father, attacking me, pushing me on my knees in tears so often.

It is only now that I can say I have it all.

Princess is the most important as she is my today and my future.

Yesterday evening I tied Princess on the eclectic sounds of Tangerine Dream’s ‘Rubycon’.
One of the circles in my life is now complete.

I’m sure that if I had known back then I would do rope bondage one day with this music on the background, trust me, I would have shot myself.
For the sake of this blog, let’s be happy I never owned a gun.

5 thoughts on “Music From The Cosmos #ASMSG #jan #bondage”

  1. I’d say it’s a pretty good thing we don’t know what life has in store for us… just think how many times you would have killed yourself if you’d known!!! If you could kill yourself several times, of course…

  2. Oh for the pain and fun of it all, and the fucking ‘what ifs’ we clogged our minds with prior to finding TTWD… Well said Franco! Keep doin what you’re doin and give miss princess a big hug from us all for helping make you the Dom you are today!

    Keep up the great writing Franco….

    -Mynx’s Sir (Tom Wolf)

  3. It may not seem it at the time, especially the teenage years filled with all the angst and uncertainty yet it is those experiences through life that makes us the person we are at this point and time.
    A wonderful and insightful post Sir

    1. I sat down with a well defined post in my mind. Strangely when I started typing it gradually became something else, input from long ago. It is always great when one is surprised while writing.
      Glad you liked it.
      Franco

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