About Pain

On days that we don’t see each other I call her in the evening and we talk over phone. Sometimes our conversation goes on for half an hour but it can easily be an hour and half or, on some rare occasions, even longer.

We chitchatted about the past day and in most cases we switch over to kink pretty quick. It is by no means telephone sex. Our conversations are in-depth explorations about our kink, Princess’ fantasies and mine and road-maps and new paths for us to discover.

Yesterday Princess told me finding out she enjoys pain, as a sexual trigger, is something I had learned her.
I know my Love enjoys the fierce nipple pinching, spanking, whipping, back scratching, the Wheel of Pain, hot wax and the occasional almost skin breaking biting.

We talked some more and discussed the new blog post she is writing. Finally I wished her good night and hung up. Fuck it, we were both lying in the wrong bed.

Our conversation echoed in my head keeping me of my much-needed sleep. Finally one specific element of our talk emerged.

Pain.

I know deep down I am a sadist, even more than I am ready to admit, and the thought of inflicting pain on Princess is such a powerful incitement it gives me an instant hard-on and the act itself, whipping, biting, pinching, is extremely satisfying.
Princess has masochist tendencies so once again we match.

For some strange reason I got the impression, lying in the dark and thinking it all over, Princess talks more about pain than I do. She even writes about it in her poetry and in the blog post that is coming up in a day or two.

Yes, I would like go more in-depth on this and to be able to talk about it, Princess’ needs and mine. A part of me wants to discover, experiment where this part of BDSM brings us.

Yet I am afraid. Sadism is a much darker and intense road than those we have already walked or are just discovering and will it open a Pandora’s box? Am I afraid because it conflicts with the way I was raised?
Maybe the stimulus of giving pain is more intense for me but it could be the other way around.

What is Princess’ opinion?
Is taboo or upbringing holding her back too? Is it possible she wants to go further on that road with me but is afraid to say so?

Our relationship, our Love and the possibilities, Princess is really my long-awaited Grail. Princess is the One I have been waiting for so long.

I am sure we will figure this out and travel to new horizons.

Caning

3 thoughts on “About Pain”

  1. The hardest part of bdsm for me is also those societal norms that say hitting or humiliating a woman is horrible and that men should treat you like a delicate flower and basically kidding your ass. A guy like that would be such a turn off to me! I like a man who is strong and dominant. The main thing to remember is that anything is ok if it is consensual. My Sir cares about me and I trust him with my life. I know that he would never do anything to seriously harm me which is why I feel so free to explore my major masochistic tendencies with him.

    Does Princess have a blog? I love to read both sides in a relationship and she sounds like she has a lot of interesting stories to tell!

  2. I understand your feelings and concern regarding giving pain. I am a sadist, little flower is a masochist, a good match so to speak. She revels in her pain when I give it. We talk often about it and how it works into her life.
    There is always the thought in the back of my mind, what if I like giving it to much? What if I become drunk on inflicting it upon her?
    It is a balance, walking the fence line.
    little flower wants more and in bits and pieces I have been giving her more. In measured steps on my part.

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